little things.

it seems like for the past week every time I would sit down and try to blog i'd either be exhausted or have a million other things to do. So today is my lazy day and I am determined to get this done.

This past week has been crazy for me. I started work on Monday, it snowed/rained all week and I either have a cold or I'm allergic to my apartment.

If you ask anyone they'll tell you I love snow. Whenever it snows massive amounts anywhere I get jealous. The fam in Virginia has been getting serious snow the past two or three months and up here in NY we've had maybe a few flurries here and there. So when the weather man said to prepare for tons of snow I guess you could say I was super excited. We didn't get the crazy snow he was reporting, instead we got tons of wet wet wet snow the first day and then rain/flurries for the rest of the week. I would have some pictures to post but honestly getting from my car to my house without stepping in the puddles (actually lakes) that covered my street took so much effort that by the time I got to my door I just wanted to be inside. Trust me though, it's not much to post. Imagine slush everywhere that's what it is. I'm pretty sure my Uggs are ruined, and the bottom of my pants have been wet for the past six days. Needless to say I'm over the wet and if I dare to say, I'm ready for spring.

In between all this weather I started training for my job on monday. It seems like it's going to be pretty easy. I'm working in the call center for a bank. The people I work with are awesome, and the environment is really laid back which is awesome.

Because I had to be at training or school early every morning I've been sleeping at my house. Before I continue with this story let me give some background information. I really don't stay at my house for extended periods of time. I'm usually at Edwards. I've spent more than three days in a row at my apartment around thanksgiving, christmas and this week. By the third day I am stuffed up, coughing and just miserable. Without fail this has happened again. I slept there for three nights, and the fourth morning I woke up and could barely breathe. I think I'm allergic to my apartment. My mom said that there could be mold in the apartment, or I'm just allergic to something in there, or my roommate is just constantly giving me colds. I don't think it's colds because before I moved in there it was rare for me to get more than one or two colds a year, and since moving in there I've had four "colds" in five months. I'm not sure what to do other than not sleep there, which tends to be a little inconvenient at times. Any suggestions would be appreciated. I am counting down the days until I move out. I can't wait to be out of that apartment.

This week has been super stressful for me, money, school, work, my health. Everything piled up on me and Wednesday I had what I like to call a "lauren breakdown" Edward walked into my house and I was on the phone with my sister crying and complaining. He waited for me to get off the phone and just sat there to talk with me. He is amazing. The next day he handed me a card, telling me how everything will work out and how much he loves me. That put a huge smile on my face and I realized he was right. Friday night he brought me a tiny teddy bear sprayed with his cologne so that if i'm at my house i can feel like he's in bed with me. To top it all off I had an experience I've never had before, and it made me realize how truly lucky I am to have him in my life.

Edward is not rich, he doesn't have an abundant flow of cash. He's just like the rest of us working, paying bills and dealing with this shit hole economy, so when someone like that goes out of their way to help me I am so grateful. When they do it with out me knowing, and have no intention of making sure I know it was them it's even better.
Friday night we were at the grocery store buying some food, right after I finished paying I happened to open a section of my wallet that I normally don't use. Inside was forty dollars. This may not seem like a lot, but to a college student this is better than gold. I was so surprised, and annoyed because I had just spent the past week budgeting and denying myself things because I had no money. I couldn't believe that I had forty dollars in my wallet and never knew. I asked him if he put it there, but couldn't think of when he would have. He denied it and we walked out of the grocery store. I kept talking about how happy I was I found it and how exciting it was and i looked up and saw this smile on his face. Instantly I knew it was him, of course after me asking am million times he finally admitted to it.

I rarely do this, but I am dedicating this blog to him. He made my week a little bit better, and made it easy to survive. I am a sucker for doing little things for people. If you're having a bad day I'll be the one that leaves your favorite snack on your desk, if you're sick i'll show up with a cold survival kit. I don't expect anything in return, I just enjoy seeing how happy it makes people. I usually don't' experience this from the other person's point of view. DO having someone do this for me was amazing. I am so lucky to have this man in my life, and I can't imagine how I would survive without him.

So here's to a better week, and getting healthy again. I'll be laying in bed with Vick's on my nose reading all your blogs. So keep me entertained :)

peace&love